it took me a long time to get back on the train

choo choo!

I am trying to get back on an exercise train because the party train recently passed by and I had first class tickets…and I am feeling like I might need to get off soon. Lately, it’s either super healthy/exercise every day/eat perfectly, or rage fest. My life ends up being consumed by either one, or the other. If I am in a running and exercising mode, it’s all I think and talk about, which I know gets annoying. If you are into running, good for you, but not everyone wants to know how many times you ran this week or how far. I think big races can be the exception, but day-to-day summaries are unnecessary for people not indirectly involved. If I am in party mode, all I want to do is go out and meet up with friends and have cocktails, or drink wine every night with dinner. I need to find a GD balance, people. I know I am not a therapist, but it is obvious to me why this happens – there are certain times in my life when I would prefer being by myself and there are other times in my life when I need friends and to be around people. I just take it to the extreme and I want to find balance. I don’t think I have a problem with drinking, that’s not what I am trying to say, I just think I need to find a routine and stick with it – one that incorporates friends and alone time, and drinks and no drinks. I need to make a chart. I flourish with charts and lists. It is time to get back on track before the holidays hit (and before I need to get in a bathing suit for new years).